From the Archives: Civil War Letter
Atlanta Geo Nov 8th/ 63
My Dearest Husband
I wrote you this day week ago and sent it by Lt Moss who staid with us on the following night. I suppose you have received it in this time. I received your of the 30 Oct last Friday. We were very glad to hear from you. I feared you would be some time getting my letter after I learned you had moved. I am thankful you still have your health which is the greatest of blessings for what could we do without health. And so you think you will not get the place of A. Q. M. I am so sorry, indeed I think Col. has treated you very shabbily when you have served him so faithfully and discharged your duties as q m so satisfactorily to all + he acknowledged himself that you are worthy of the place. I think it is a shame, it is not dealing out justice and I think you ought to contend for the place. Go to him. State the change which has taken place in your family, the increased responsibilities resting upon you that you need higher wages. Reason with him upon the difference between your situation and Adjt’s, he with no family +c. If he is a reasonable man + has any sympathy for the widow + orphan he will surely change his mind. Perhaps if you will not be so independent. Contend for your rights. Show him you know what justice is and you intend to have justice. That is the reason some men never rise. They always take just what others choose to put on them, my poor father was an example. Yes I think the place is + ought to be yours by right if the Col wishes to promote the Adjt let him give him some other place. Is he the only one who has the right to say anything in the matter? No doubt many of the poor privates are as justly entitled to promotion as Harden. Wonder if he will promote them too. Well so the world wags. Those who have, always receive more + those who do the most receive the least. Tough I hope you will exert yourself to get the place. I think a little strange of Harden for applying for the place when he knew you had been filling it + filled it well besides being such a good friend of yours. I would not have thought that he would have tried to supplant you. Try do try dear Johny to secure the place yet for I assure you we need every cent you can spare, though I do not expect you to deprive yourself of any the comforts you can procure. No indeed. I know you get few enough any how + I would rather add to them take from your salary if I could. Ma is with us as I told you in my last. She improves quite slow. Her cough is very troublesome. Sometimes I feel confident she has consumption though some say it is bronchitis. She sometimes expresses herself fearful that she will not more than stand this winter though I hope she will live to bless our home for many years. She is still weak though for a while before Pa died + sometime since she scarcely eat any thing. She believes she can make a support if she can only get stout again. We have not went out for wood yet as she had some on hand. We concluded from what Mr Parrott said that it was useless to depend on him for wood. He said it was all so uncertain about getting it cut hauled + shipped so we have laid up some wood at 12 + 13 dollars pr load not enough though to do us. I had about $4.00 fifty four dollars when Pa died (Mr Renier sent me $40.00). Mr Sasseen let Ma have fifty (they have not yet settled) besides she had about $28.00 + we have used nearly all of it. Ma also fears she or rather we will not be able to keep up the bank stock. She is anxious to put a small amount to the house + some work to any advantage. She would be better satisfied to keep a few boarders not lodge them. Though she does not talk of doing so. Mr Murphy of Calhoun was here yesterday looked at the house + said the improvements could be put up for %100. He is going to see what chance to get lumber + c. Ma said the other day she felt like drawing all the stock + using some to improve the house and trust to providence to provide a way for support so I can not say now what she will do. I think it more than probable that she will draw it out as to advising with others it appears that every one must be his own adviser. others seem to be so taken up with their own affairs so much busy making money they are entirely destitute of sympathy or feeling for the sorrows or wants of others, though Mr. Sasseen has expressed himself as though he was willing and ready to give Me any advice or assistance in his power. Jeny also said in her letter that Ma should not suffer that Mr P. would show her by his actions that he felt an interest in her welfare. We will see what we will see. Ma requested Mr Sasseen to ask the Masons to furnish her with a cow + she would pay for her if they would wait on her. He told her Friday he had spoken for one + would know this week if he would get her. the price was $125.00. I hope she will succeed. butter is only $4.00 pr lb the beef from .70 to .90 pork $2.00 mutton $1.00 to 1.25 that is in the market. sweet potatoes $6.00 to 7.00 from the wagons. Ma has several things she intends to sell [page water spotted] one machine, a new hat, pr boots never worn, a coat fine black one, [page water spotted] a fine pr cassimere pants cut out + Ma + I will make them. these things of course will bring her some thing. You spoke of getting a furlough. oh how glad we would be. Ma has been wishing + hoping you would be able to come home + stay a month or so. We need you very much. Do Johny try + get off. Lt Moss is with you now though I suppose Lt Hall is it now. try any how. if Mount does go home + you can not come perhaps you can when he returns. you have not many furloughs since you have been in service and I think they might grant you one under the present circumstances. Do the best you can. iI you can come do so if not we will try + knock along somehow + wait patiently until you can come. We would rejoice to see you for we are so lonesome but do not do anything that will interfere with your getting that situation. I have not seen Mr Griffin since he left. he is still waiting for a settlement. I fear unless he mends his ways he will not get near enough to Pa to make a settlement if that is what he is waiting for. I did think of getting Parrott to see him but his eyes are so bad + I do not know when he will be down + I need to money. I think I will go to him myself with Ma + see if he is gentleman enough to pay it. if not them I will take some other course. I did not tell you of the change which has taken place in the hotels. Mr Bill + John Henderson sold their interest to old men Jones a short time before Pa was taken sick. Henderson + Rogers (the butcher) then bought out the Atlanta Hotel + Mr Goodson also though I do suppose he had any money to pay nevertheless he is in it too. they left the very day Ma took her thing away. the negroes were very sorry to give Ma up + some said they would not stay. The Hall is in a bad condition. Jones has control + he is not a man to please the people. Sasseen will be out in four or five months. I do not know who will take it then. Mr York + Miss Cordelia are to be married before a great while he [page water spotted] now I saw him with Mrs. L. to day at church. Bro Parks came up to see us Friday [page water spotted] he had prayers with us prayed for the absent ones those in perilous positions that they might be kept in the way of Go + at last permitted to return home. In conversation thy spoke of your business matters thought Col ought to give you the place. Sasseen said you was naturally a business man + he would give you $200.00 + your board if he could get you.